today, i walk in the

today, i walk in the kitchen to make lunch, and people are arguing loudly. i begin pulling things from the refridgerator so that i may eat. i feel uncomfortable, but remind myself that i should not feel uncomfortable; that it is only conflict. why are we all so afraid of conflict? i am reminded of the the personal challenges in my life. i am reminded of how terribly difficult it is to communicate honestly sometimes. how difficult it can be to remain open. in moments, i leave so that we may mix more of "I Am Not In Spain." i hope that we can share our thoughts openly in ron's basement. i hope that the songs will speak loudly enough. but today, i am sad. i wonder, "how much should i share with these strangers out there?"

Posted by at February 17, 2003 02:54 PM

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