Small Population (in the vacuum)
A few days ago I googled myself while writing my one of my last papers for graduate school. This was of course one of the most egregious ways of distracting myself, and fooling around with my ego. I don’t do this very often, but it usually leads to four thoughts:
1. “I wish I was more ‘successful’.”
2. “You know, I’m doing pretty well as an artist.”
3. “I’m not doing very well as an artist. This is hopeless.”
4. “I wonder if anyone from my past ever googles me, and what do they think when they see this stuff?”
After these thoughts this time, I clicked on a link which quite inflated that aforementioned ego of mine. It was a post from a few years ago on someone else’s blog, mentioning how great my blog was. Imagine that. This someone is admittedly a friend of my wife’s but a stranger to me more or less. Summer Pierre. To be honest I can't say whether I enjoy her blog (as I've not really been there before now) and I can't speak about her music as I've not heard it. But Keri likes both, so I figure I would too and should probably take my wife's lead and check them out, as Keri is quite fond of Summer.
Some woman that I have never met writing that my blog is great. The guy I gave a copy of To All Dead Sailors to back in December, sending me a note to say that he loves it, and finds it in heavy rotation in his itunes. Sometimes, these small things are all I need to remind myself that what I am doing is worth my time and valid. That at least someone other than my family and best friends get something from it. Something. That at least the vacuum I live in has a small population.
Posted by jeff pitcher at May 7, 2008 10:36 AM
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So odd (and timely) I couldn't resist commenting. Indeed, someone from your past did randomly google you, and here you are! I guess you just popped into my head and I thought, wow, I wonder what Jeff Pitcher is doing. Anyway, congrats on your son. That's great news. I just had a daughter- it sounds like a few days after your son was born. Her name is Abbey. Anyway, good to know that things are good with you...
Catherine (Togs)
Posted by: Catherine at May 7, 2008 12:25 PM
It is funny that you wondered if anyone from your past googles you. I rarely google people, but I googled you the other day, wondering what you ended up doing with your music. You don't know me, but I was a customer of yours when you worked at Kepler's and you gave me a copy of your first cd. I think it must have been in 1997? I was that teacher who was always buying multiple copies of books and talking soccer with you.
Anyways, it is good to see that you kept doing your music. We need musicians in the world! Enjoy fatherhood, before you blink your eyes they move on to a new stage more wonderful than the one before. (I am speaking from my experience as a mother of a 3 year old.)
Take care,
Meg Williams :)
Posted by: Meg Williams at May 7, 2008 06:42 PM
Let me add another funny bit of "timing"--I was just searching something from my journal 4 years ago and found a quote I think I got from you. I just searched you out to give you credit on my blog and lookee here! There you have it--there's a buzz with your name all around it.
Posted by: summer at May 10, 2008 09:35 AM
